Who I am and why I’m here – Blogging101

I am a woman, a wife, a mother, a sister, a friend, a daughter. I have been in this world for three decades. I have worked in airlines and in shipping as an accountant and a documentation clerk. But I learned quickly that I enjoy creating more. I like to do and to make many different things starting with creating music, drawing, designing, photography ending with sewing, knitting, leather craft and writing. Creating is a language for me through which I express myself. And it seems that I like to speak more than one language depending on the season in my life. Currently I’m at home with my youngest daughter (1y 8m) which is why I feel a little isolated from the rest of the world. I also lack time for myself and for creating something in peace (as you may imagine a mom’s everyday life :)

But really, does it say who I am? Or, have I had a chance yet to see who I am or who I could be?
I am still that 6 year old girl who is looking at an ant nest and wondering if there is somebody or something so big that is looking at me the way I am looking at these ants. I am still a 26 year old single mother who decides to go on a half year long journey to the other side of the planet together with her 5 year old daughter – to learn about life, and herself. I am somebody who gets inspired by colours, nature, music, people and their stories, big goals, challenges, the stars and the unknown. I am somebody who believes in the power of dreaming with the right feeling. You know – imagine your future spouse, what qualities you want him (or her) to have; and even the details e.g. what is the colour of his eyes etc. Write it on a yellow post-it and stick it on a mirror that you see often. And two weeks later you meet your future spouse and the father of your children. My true story. Naive? Silly? Yes, I am all that, too. And it works fine for me. I jump with joy. And appreciate the gracefulness and flexibility inside, by dancing outside.

Sometimes I lose focus or dive into something so much that my surrounding becomes a little foggy. Sometimes I can self-destructively think too much about details. I am broken at times. I have fears that make my tummy stiff, or make me turn around right behind a door and go back home. Sometimes I go to my comfortable corner and cry all the tension out. And that’s alright. Because I am the life with duality – all the way from fear to love.

And this is why I am here – to wonder together about mad and wonderful things about people and life. Give and get feedback, inspiration, encouragement through writing; about writing. What we all have in common is some sort of a struggle – and that’s something mandatory for a great story and inspiration to share.

Blogging101 – Introduce Yourself 

Insanely intense life – another three seconds of it

These are some good moments that happen around me. Pretty often, I assume. The moments that come and go so quickly, often unnoticeable. Would I notice them if I didn’t have the camera in my hands? If meditation is about being in present, then me holding the camera in my hands means meditation. It’s me being immersed in the now, noticing and aiming for the best expression of the moment, then clicking on the button on that incredible time saving machine – and all this is happening in one tiny second. How many seconds like that are there in my entire life that I miss? I’m not saying I want to photograph and notice each and every one of them. I can’t take in so much :) I’m saying that the life is intensely rich. It’s around me and you all the time. It takes a good practice to learn to see that. Even without the camera.

This is   t h r e e    s e c o n d s  of my family :
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